Thursday, October 30, 2008
to hear but not to listen?
Ever realized that sometimes you hear but you dont listen? that happens to me a lot, but recently, I just realized that actually tho i think that i didn't pay attention, to my surprise I could recite whatever said earlier. like wowness!
anyway inspired by hanshengs 3 beautiful things and by HEP's fact that by giving gratitude to 3 things a day really reduces stress and lowers risk of heart attack, I shall give thanks to at least 3 things every time i blog (if i remember).
today:
1. thank you my awesome anatomy study group for helping me so much
2. thank you for my ulcer hurting less and possibly starting to recover
3. thank you stel and von for your always being there
4. thank you for today being mannie's birthday!
Now, all I need is sleep, can I thank you for the tremendous load of sleep ive gotten in advance and hopes it comes soon? see, lack of sleep is making me not make sense.
♥ Jo 4:31 PM
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Another view
A Teacher asked her class to write notes to God. Here are some they handed in:
Dear God: I didn't think orange went with purple until I saw the sunset You made on Tuesday. That was cool.
Dear God: Instead of letting people die and having to make new ones, why don't You keep the ones You already have?
Dear God: Maybe Cain and Abel would not have killed each other if they had their own rooms. That's what my Mom did for me and my brother.
Dear God: If You watch me in church on Sunday, I'll show You my new shoes.
Dear God: I bet it is very hard to love everyone in the whole world. There are only 4 people in our family and I'm having a hard time loving all of them.
Dear God: In school they told us what You do. Who does it when You are on vacation?
Dear God: Are You really invisible or is it just a trick?
Dear God: Is it true my father won't get into heaven if he uses his bowling words in the house?
Dear God: Did You mean for the giraffe to look like that or was it an accident?
Dear God: Who draws the lines around the countries?
Dear God: I went to this wedding and they kissed right in the church. Is that OK?
Dear God: Did You really mean "do unto others as they do unto you"? Because if You did, then I'm going to get my brother good.
Dear God: Thank You for the baby brother, but I think you got confused because what I prayed for was a puppy.
Dear God: Please send me a pony. I never asked for anything before. You can look it up.
Dear God: I want to be just like my Daddy when I get big, but not with so much hair all over.
Dear God: You don't have to worry about me; I always look both ways.
Dear God: I think about You sometimes, even when I'm not praying.
Dear God: Of all the people who worked for You, I like Noah and David the best.
Dear God: My brother told me about being born but it doesn't sound right. He is just kidding, isn't he?
Dear God: I would like to live 900 years just like the guy in the Bible.
Dear God: We read Thomas Edison made light. But in Sunday school they said You did it. So, I bet he stole Your idea
♥ Jo 1:47 AM
Thursday, October 9, 2008
words fall thru me and always fool me
simplicity is a mere disguise when reality is more than meets the eye.
wishing for it to rain and I really need to go out or something.
found a new fave song 我的快乐：会回来的 (:
have 2 plasters on my left hand for biting my nails,
dunno why as of lately, I bite them alot, and no eventho I do them often it doesnt go this bad.
normally its just bite abit only, now i bit even when theres nothing to bite and end up causing the finger to bleed.
hmm... there's a word for it, starting with ... I forgot.
I need a brightly lit park outside my house with swings, need green tea milkshake, need peppermint ice cream, need fizzy cola candies. I want christmas to come sooner. Presents wrapped in pretty wrappers and tied up in ribbons with pretty letters under a pretty tree, all Jan's specialty.
I wanna pick up a stray cat and bring it home and make it fat and happy but quite hard to achieve la. basically its just random blabber cause I just felt like typing alot of stuff out. You can smack me now but you wont cause you know you love me too much.
Now for the serious stuff.
Belonging is something that everyone really search for I guess, its our need for unconditional love and acceptance in a way. A sense of belonging is the cause of so many problems in the world. Some spend their whole lives struggling to grip onto something they think completes them, to find a place where they belong, be it religion, culture, family, friends. Sometimes, its the negative aspect of the human race that brings about the sense of belonging people are so desperate to find, self abuse, alcohol abuse, being in the cool gang, hanging out with the popular, being someone they're not just to fit in and be accepted.
Belonging is a double-edges sword. On one hand, you want to belong because you feel lonely, so you seek out others who share certain similarities. On one hand, you don't want to be categorizes and generalized. You conveniently switch your position depending on merit. You want to eat your cake and have it too.
Is it possible to balance both? Or will you fall to one side. To blend in completely and be ordinary normal and possibly forgotten or to be different, remembered and maybe left out.
Now I shall leave you to my own confused thoughts or whatsoever the above is. It's up to you to decide whether I make sense.
♥ Jo 12:03 AM
