Here's a story of a girl,
Living in the lonely world,
A hidden note, A secret crush,
A little boy who talks too much.
Well, I'm standing in the crowd,
And when you smile I check you out,
But you don't even know my name,
You're too busy playing games,
And I want you too know,
If you lose your way,
I won't let you go.
If I cut my hair,
If I change my clothes,
Will you notice me?
If I bite my lip,
If I say hello,
Will you notice me?
♥♥♥
Thursday, October 9, 2008
words fall thru me and always fool me
simplicity is a mere disguise when reality is more than meets the eye.
wishing for it to rain and I really need to go out or something.
found a new fave song 我的快乐:会回来的 (:
have 2 plasters on my left hand for biting my nails,
dunno why as of lately, I bite them alot, and no eventho I do them often it doesnt go this bad.
normally its just bite abit only, now i bit even when theres nothing to bite and end up causing the finger to bleed.
hmm... there's a word for it, starting with ... I forgot.
I need a brightly lit park outside my house with swings, need green tea milkshake, need peppermint ice cream, need fizzy cola candies. I want christmas to come sooner. Presents wrapped in pretty wrappers and tied up in ribbons with pretty letters under a pretty tree, all Jan's specialty.
I wanna pick up a stray cat and bring it home and make it fat and happy but quite hard to achieve la. basically its just random blabber cause I just felt like typing alot of stuff out. You can smack me now but you wont cause you know you love me too much.
Now for the serious stuff.
Belonging is something that everyone really search for I guess, its our need for unconditional love and acceptance in a way. A sense of belonging is the cause of so many problems in the world. Some spend their whole lives struggling to grip onto something they think completes them, to find a place where they belong, be it religion, culture, family, friends. Sometimes, its the negative aspect of the human race that brings about the sense of belonging people are so desperate to find, self abuse, alcohol abuse, being in the cool gang, hanging out with the popular, being someone they're not just to fit in and be accepted.
Belonging is a double-edges sword. On one hand, you want to belong because you feel lonely, so you seek out others who share certain similarities. On one hand, you don't want to be categorizes and generalized. You conveniently switch your position depending on merit. You want to eat your cake and have it too.
Is it possible to balance both? Or will you fall to one side. To blend in completely and be ordinary normal and possibly forgotten or to be different, remembered and maybe left out.
Now I shall leave you to my own confused thoughts or whatsoever the above is. It's up to you to decide whether I make sense.
♥ Jo 12:03 AM